amendment

crap!! i forgot the best record of the year. i must amend my list.

1. Sleater-Kinney, The Woods



How could i forget!! I can't wait to be around when people start talking about how that record changed everything.

fucking stellar.

use it tonight

tonight i got to hang out with my pal, armstead, and drink some beers
in the backyard, smoke cigarettes and shoot the shit. i miss having him
around the house. he's a good friend and he makes me feel okay about a
lot of things and the way i think about them. plus i love his dog.

the bummer is that i didn't get to talk to dex today and i'll admit that i'm jonesing. it's not that i have to
talk to him every day but it irks me when i don't get to talk to him on
days that i planned to. like wednesday nights. the time
difference calls for some loose scheduling of these things, so right
now i feel like there's something missing from my day. i did get to say
goodnight to a very sleepy dex which i enjoyed just almost as much as
talking to him because it made me think of several things i like.
including a sleepy dex in my bed holding onto his glasses because he's
too sleepy to make it to the table with them.



i'm retarded with liking this boy! jesus, that disgusts me.



but it does bring up one of my favorite lyrics of this year and maybe one of the best lyrics ever.

you'll find it tied for first place on my (just forming) 2005 Top Ten Albums list. (I am a music geek, after all.)



"two sips from the cup of human kindness and i'm shitfaced...just laid to waste."

that gem's from A.C. "Carl" "Boom-Boom" Newman.



2005 Top Ten list*

1. New Pornographers, Twin Cinema/Mary Timony, Ex Hex

2. Richard Hawley, Coles Corner

3. Spoon, Gimme Fiction

4. The Hold Steady, Separation Sunday

Others T.B.A. but may include

Feist, Let it Die

Silver Jews, Tanglewood Numbers

Broadcast, Tender Buttons

*order subject to change



it's been a week of processing. lots of emotions. most of which i
really like and some which i don't, like jealously and the bad part of
pining (that it won't end till i see dexter next).

what i'd like to do is take the frantic energy that's resulted from
having dex here and then taken away and turn it into something i can
use. like i used angst in high school to get me to college. or
frustration in providence to get me to the east bay. to make it fuel. i
have been getting a lot done lately and it feels good. but there's a
part of me that definitely doesn't know what to be doing and so is
running around in circles in my head, the same way that i do when i get
really stoned sometimes and end up half-cleaning the kitchen and
bathroom without ever finishing one room.



umm...anyway....